"I'm sorry I can't be perfect"

I'm sorry, but I'm not going to apologize. If there is a God, then I think that He is going to have to understand that the way that I turned out is mostly because of his plan. I mean, come on. How fair is it to punish me for the things that I truly believe now because of really screwed up experiences that I had at the hands of Catholic? I get so sick of people who try to tell me that I am going to go to hell because of the music I listen to, the friends I hang out with, the things I do, the things I think, the things I say… the list goes on and on, well the way I see it is, all and all I am a good person, I know I have a lot of flaws, but alas, I am only human, and none of us are perfect, but some people who are ‘Catholics’ seem to think that they are perfect, and can do whatever it is they please so long as they go and ask for forgiveness. Then afterwards, they can go back out in the world and commit the same sins they just asked to be forgiven for, and then all they have to do is go back to the church, and say, “Hey God, I fucked up again, but now that I am admitting it to you, you are going to forgive me, and I will get into heaven, cause you have forgiven my sins, for the 100^th time.” Well I think that is a load of crap… I don’t think you can keep going and doing the same sinful thing and keep being forgiven for that sin, as long as you keep asking, I think you are only allowed to be forgiven once, cause when you are forgiven the first time, God knows that you know that your actions are wrong, and will not allow you to do it again with out facing the consequences. And some Catholics I know commit some pretty major sins, over and over again, and then all they do is say “Oops, I did it again, forgive me Father” I don’t see where I do anything that is a major sin, I worship the God I believe in, weather it is the same God others believe in or not, after all no one on earth knows the true path that God wants us to follow, all you can do is live life the best you can with what you are given, and hope that in the end, God will be the understanding person we are told he is, unless of coarse, you fuck up big time, and then well there is no hope for you. So with all that said the next time that someone comes up to me and tries to 'save' me, when I have done nothing bad, I am going to start quoting verses from the Wiccan Rede. The next time that someone has the audacity to tell me that my political, religious, and general outlook on life is wrong, irresponsible, misled, dangerous, and then has the balls to say that the reason I am 'wrong' is not my fault, but because of something that happened to me YEARS AGO, I am going to sit you down for a blow by blow discussion on exactly what happened to me then, and since, so that you can see that the only reason you are saying that is so that you don't have to take responsibility for the fact that Catholics are the NUMBER ONE REASON for atheism, period. Seriously people. We should be focusing on building bridges, not on finding ways to tear them down. You can think that I'm wrong as much as you want too-- I think you're wrong, too-- and you can pray for me all you want too. I pray for you, too. And for as dangerous or misled you think my opinions are, I promise that I think the same thing about yours. But... chances are that we are both powerful in our own ways. Chances are that we want, generally, the same things. Chances are that we love this world around us, we love the people in our lives, and we want-- with our whole hearts-- to keep them safe. So lets stop bitching about why we are the way we are, and why I'm wrong and why you're right, and why I'm going to Hell and why you're not. And let’s fix what we can, NOW, HERE. I'm tired of having my eye on eternity while today falls around me in shambles.