For Old Times Sake

Do you ever wonder if the best times of your life have passed you by?

I had some of the best months in my life in 2003/2004.
At the time, Joey, Crystal and I were living together

We did so much it makes my head spin when I think of it,
We shared so many good memories, and I know
that alot of the time we were living together, we didn't always get along
but looking back, the good times out weigh the bad
and I know that me and Crystal didn't always get along
but I will always think of her as a very good friend
and I am sorry, i wasn't the friend to her I should have been back then
I know one thing.... I would have hated living on the "farm" without them

It is true we wanted to make those months special, and we did…
And then I was forced to leave, and they moved away,
and I returned a few years later. And unsurprisingly,
returning, things have been very different without them.
I miss all the times we shared, or perhaps it is the company.

I can’t deny missing them. I was aware from the the time they moved in,
that I would miss there presence, with their larger than life
personalities and constant presence. We became incredibly close
(even though I didn't realize it at the time)
over the span of those months, and sometimes I wonder if we
will ever get the opportunity to experience that again.

Laughing together and talking late into the night.
Doing things that only friends do. I miss getting up early
and driving to corydon, to take Crystal to school...
(as much as i hated it at the time, but only cause I am not a morning person)
and the car drive back, where me and Joey got to talk.
I miss coming home, and knowing that I had a great friend there.
(And I feel it paved the way for their future marrige,
by them getting to live together, they had a chance
to get to know each other in ways, that they never would have
had they not been able to live together, or lived together with parents)
Even when I wasn't wanted around (cause they wanted "alone time")
and even though that upset me so much, I understand now
and wish I could go back and change things, but I can't

Crystal’s constant lighthearted chatter, and her excitability.
She had a child like innocence about her.
Joey’s random jokes at the most unexpected of times.
He always knew how to chear me up.

We fed off each other’s enthusiasm, each other’s spirit for life.
And even when things got bad, we still managed to make it.
I hope I’m not the only one that feels this way.

Sometimes people come and go from your lives,
and make themselves into such an important,
integral part of your life that once they go
they leave that large, gaping hole that you can’t help noticing.
It is not that I no longer have any fun, it’s just that much more different.

At times I sit and wonder wistfully what they are doing,
and how they are coping leaving behind the life we shared.
(I am sure they are doing just fine, I mean its been a few years
but tonight, I just started thinking about the times we shared")
And sometimes I cannot help but wish they were here with me
so we could just hang out again, and make stupid jokes, or just talk.
And sometimes I just miss the small things like going shopping
at the old walmart together, or watching disney movies
And sometimes I miss them so much I don’t know
what to do with myself, and I wonder if anyone
should have to lose two of their closest friends at the same time.
(though I didn't realize at the time how close we were)

I still have many, many experiences in my life,
as they do theres, and they are a few steps ahead of me
(marrige, and there additon to there family)
and I hope that many of mine will include these two special people.
as they have included me in theres
Here’s to you guys. I miss you.