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Do you think I'm weird?

Other than my usual weirdness
where I think weird things
and point it out in a middle
of a discussion and laugh
like crazy whether you get it or not?

I think I'm going mad.

I'm starting to see things and it is scary.
Sounds so fuckin' lame and I feel like
slappin' myself but yeah. What can you do.
I have always thougth this house was haunted
I see shadows and they move.
And its not just once or twice.
Oh, and yeah, some people probably think
I am making this up but the thing is
it wasn't only this morning.
When I was huddlin' under the blankets
trying to fall asleep, while squeezing my eyes shut
and thinking, "maybe it's the lack of sleep".
It happened a few times these past couple of weeks.
I see some black shadows, moving,
from the corner of my eye, even in bright daylight.

And I know it is not my fucking imagination.
Don't you think someone my age can tell
the difference between reality and imagination?

Curiously, I am always alert when I "see" these things.

I hardly get a good night sleep now,
always jerking awake with my eyes darting wildly about
and my ears straining to listen to god knows what.

I sleep with the lights on now.
With my computer on and music playing.

Honestly, I don't care if I go mental.
Or if something's wrong with my brain
or I am psychologically disturbed.
I'm not afraid of that. But afraid of the supernatural.
Stupid right? A big boy afraid of monsters under the bed.
I'm tired. And I don't care if you believe me.
Right now, everyone can just go to hell.
See ya there. Heh.