I wish I could make this all go away

So this is the first time in the past few days, i have been at home, and i feel bad for not being at Helens, but I am real sick, and I decided to stay here so I don't make her or Justice sick also. Anyways, Her mom is in the hospital, and is not doing good... I have a bad feeling about whats going to happen in the days to come, but I am always a very pesimistic person, so I hope thats all this is, is me looking on the bad side of things, and I hope everything turns out for the best, but I know one thing, if I could I would trade places with her mom, if God would let me... I know Helen won't agree with me, but she needs her mom more than she needs me... I don't know whats going to happen, should her mom die... and to be honest I don't really want to think about it.. as Helen said, things are already starting to get ugly, and nothing real bad has happened yet... i don't know, I just feel so bad for Helen, and Justice, and for JoAnn, I love her so much, like my own mom... I hope everything goes well... and if not, then I hope Helen knows that I am here for her, and for justice... this may not make much since, my meds are kicking in, and i am about to fall asleep, so I will end this now