...What Darkness Brings...

i like it when it's dark..
i love to go out
and be one with nature...
it gives me a sense of solitude..
gives me a sense of peace..
sometimes, constant bright lights blind me,
and by staying a while in the dark,
i get to be in touch with the person inside of me..
no pretenses... just simply who i am..
i could meditate.. i see things more clearly..

I'm sitting here on the back porch,
just admiring the beauty of nature
that's about to sleep..
I hear the crickets and their other mates
making their symphony..
The flowers beside the back door
closes its petals, as if knowing i
nstinctively that they need to rest
after a full day of bloom...
The night lamps are flickering,
dramatizing and giving
more effects to the night sky..

I can't see any stars tonight..
They are enveloped against the arms
of the midnight clouds..
I'm searching for just one star,
a star that somehow was able to shine upon me,
regardless of the darkness that the clouds offered.....
but i see none tonight.. I waited for a while,
hoping that i would see even
a faint twinkle up on the heavens..
I let the gentle breeze brush upon my skin,
filling up my senses..
I waited for a minute.. then a minute
turned into two.. three.. till it reached up to twenty..
i just stayed there staring blankly at the sky..
just simply captivated by the silent beauty
of darkness around me..
i'm dreaming... i'm wishing... i'm waiting
for a shooting star to come my way...
i am not a person who loves to live in the dark..
don't get that impression from me..
It's just that darkness sometimes brings light..
not necessarily the physical light we often times
associate with the word, but the light that comes from within..
a light that somehow gives us a reason why
we have to wake up the next day.. the light that clears our minds,
and eases our spirits.. a light sufficient enough
for us to see the beauty around us that is oftentimes
just taken for granted due to the fact that we got to
keep our pace to be not left behind by society..
These simple beautys are left unappreciated.. unnoticed...
Tonight, i want it to be different..
Let me sit down and just be here...
together with the Mother...
Let me see... Let me feel
that i sure have a place in this world....
I need to find my light tonight,
so i can see.. i just need some light to shine on me...
later, I, too, shall rest,
like the flowers by our back door..
but right now, i just want to be here...

being here tonight, i have found my solace...