If I Die Today... Will You Remember Me Tomorrow?

Nothing's ever permanent in this world..
cliche as it may sound, it's true..
we'll all die in the end,

i've got my flaws...
i've made mistakes..
i've let chances pass me by...
i've had my own share of regrets..
but i've kept alot of it to myself...

i can be an introvert,
which i sometimes wanna let go of.

i'm moody but i try not to let it show..
I smile a lot, but at the end of the day, i feel tired..
not just the superficial sense of it, but deeper...

i question things in life, but i still try
to be optimistic and say to myself,
"Everything happens for a reason.."


But is this enough for somebody to remember me when I'm gone??
Have I made any difference in somebody else's life?? even just in one??


I don't know when the day will come that I will not be here anymore
and because of this I am writing this entry
cause there are three things I want you to know before I go...


There are many instances wherein
I just let the moment pass me by
and took for granted your presence..
i seldom sais how much i love you..
i seldom say how much i appreciate
all the things that you've done to my life..
but believe me, i'm starting to try...
though i try to let it show,
sometimes it may not be enough..
so let me start now before i run out of time...
whoever's reading this, if you know who i am,
i wanna say thank you for all the things
that you've given me... Even if you
haven't done something grand for me,
just having you in my life
is enough for me to say I Love You...
thank you for being a part of me
and for sharing a piece of your time with me..
i may have forgotten to let you know
how much i feel blessed to have you in my life,
so now i'm letting you know..

If i have offended you one way or another,
hurt you in ways i never intended to do,
i want to ask for forgiveness..
I never dreamt to hurt somebody else's feelings..
never in my life did i want such a thing..
i may just be in a bad mood that day..
or i may have some things troubling my mind
that i became untactful in any way..
but if it is any consolation, i didn't mean to be...
not with you... if you could forgive me, please do....

And when the the day finally comes
when i have to leave you behind,
there's one more thing i wanted you to know,
one thing i want to ask from you.. Please don't cry for me..
It hurts me to see the pain in your eyes..
it stabs my heart to see the tears
trickling down your cheeks.. Don't cry
cause i'm just gonna be away for a while..
but i'll still be watching over you..
i'll still be there for you..
In silence, you will hear me and feel my presence..
see? i never left you.. i'll never will..
i'm gonna be your own angel forever if i have to...
goodbyes aren't always forever.. it isn't the end..
so hush now... *hush*hush*....

Life is not ours to keep...
It's something we borrowed from the one above...
there will come a time when my candle
will stop burning, but when that time comes,
and i know i have done all three, i'll be smiling...
not because i want to leave you behind..
but because i know i have done
what i was supposed to do..

i just hope that at the end of it all,
you'll remember me.... *tear*