Well I'll Tell You Why

This is on here for on person, and one person only, if you want to read it and you are not them, thats fine, if not then thats fine also.... it is mearly a reply to an email I got from someone.... and I didn't want to email the reply to them.


Why push me away?
(because I don't want to get hurt)

Why shut me out?
(because of the way I feel)

Why lie to me when I have not lied to you
(I have not been telling the whole truth, but I have never lied)

Why do all these things you are doing when all I want
is to be is your friend at least?!
(its fine for us to be friends, but the way I feel...
is not that of a friend)

I am not her and I understand(I think)
your reasons for pushing me away.
(I know you are not her, but I am still me)

I just want honestly and a person that
truly wants to be around me.
(I do want to be around you, but
I can't with the way I feel about you)

I don't want to force anyone
to talk to me or be my friend
(you are not forcing me,
if I don't want to talk to you, I won't)

Why do I expect you to understand
the hurt you caused today
when I don't understand it myself?
(I don't Know)

Now I will wonder if you ever
really want to talk to me or not.,
(... I'm sorry)

Please help me understand why
cause now I am so damn confused.
(I am confused also, with my feelings towards you...)

You block me cause you don't like to think
but was thinking truly that bad?
(thinking about someone leaving their husband,
and feeling I am the cause... yes it is bad
I know you say I am not... but if you were to leave,
and if we were to become more than friends
... I would feel real bad... and so I blocked you
so you could make up your mind to stay with him
or to leave without my interferance)