Have you ever wished that you somehow
know what the future may bring,
just to hold on to a feeling of certainty
so that questions will no longer be left unanswered?
So that fears will no longer haunt the haunted?
So that you could hold on to a feeling of security
of knowing what to do before something hits you unexpectedly?
Somehow, I wish I do.. Somehow I wish I had a hint,
even just a hint of tomorrow's reality.
There's something comforting in not having any gray areas..
Everything is concrete.. Either black or white.. Good or bad..
Perhaps just like how a child perceives the world around him.
You know, sometimes I wonder what I would feel
if I could see my own future in a crystal ball?
To have the option to know the details of my life
in a deck of cards or in the creases of my palms?
Intriguing..Tempting..
But then there's the other side of me who likes to be surprised,
who likes the feeling of not knowing..
(Just like how the saying goes, "Ignorance is bliss.")..
A side who is fascinated about the things
that is beyond my own understanding, beyond my own reach..
Someone who believes in fate and destiny
yet still wants to believe that life is not in every inch predetermined,
that I have a choice,my own free will on how to live my life..
Who wants to experience the thrill of living in the moment
without thinking too much or worrying about
'what could be' or 'what could have been'..
Without contemplating too much on "what-if's" or "if-only's" of life..
A side who just wants to be free-spirited and carefree
and just enjoy each day and appreciate the beauty
of every sunrise' and sunsets and everything in between.
Two opposite poles, two sides, two beliefs, one person..
It's funny how I could be so unbelievably ambivalent
on how I perceive life at times.. I'm like a water along the shore
who constantly waxes and wanes depending on the tide.
I'm like the moon who changes its phase from new moon to full moon.
Contradictions.. Ironies.. I've got my own fair share of it..
But does it really matter if I'm as ambivalent as I say I am?
I mean, everyday is a different day, different emotions will rule you
in that specific moment in life. It's difficult to be unchanging, don't you think?
know what the future may bring,
just to hold on to a feeling of certainty
so that questions will no longer be left unanswered?
So that fears will no longer haunt the haunted?
So that you could hold on to a feeling of security
of knowing what to do before something hits you unexpectedly?
Somehow, I wish I do.. Somehow I wish I had a hint,
even just a hint of tomorrow's reality.
There's something comforting in not having any gray areas..
Everything is concrete.. Either black or white.. Good or bad..
Perhaps just like how a child perceives the world around him.
You know, sometimes I wonder what I would feel
if I could see my own future in a crystal ball?
To have the option to know the details of my life
in a deck of cards or in the creases of my palms?
Intriguing..Tempting..
But then there's the other side of me who likes to be surprised,
who likes the feeling of not knowing..
(Just like how the saying goes, "Ignorance is bliss.")..
A side who is fascinated about the things
that is beyond my own understanding, beyond my own reach..
Someone who believes in fate and destiny
yet still wants to believe that life is not in every inch predetermined,
that I have a choice,my own free will on how to live my life..
Who wants to experience the thrill of living in the moment
without thinking too much or worrying about
'what could be' or 'what could have been'..
Without contemplating too much on "what-if's" or "if-only's" of life..
A side who just wants to be free-spirited and carefree
and just enjoy each day and appreciate the beauty
of every sunrise' and sunsets and everything in between.
Two opposite poles, two sides, two beliefs, one person..
It's funny how I could be so unbelievably ambivalent
on how I perceive life at times.. I'm like a water along the shore
who constantly waxes and wanes depending on the tide.
I'm like the moon who changes its phase from new moon to full moon.
Contradictions.. Ironies.. I've got my own fair share of it..
But does it really matter if I'm as ambivalent as I say I am?
I mean, everyday is a different day, different emotions will rule you
in that specific moment in life. It's difficult to be unchanging, don't you think?
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