Uncertain Thoughts

I'm going through a bit of a "down" time.
I'm feeling uncertain about things,
and I'm not sure which way to turn.
It's something that I am having
to battle on my own though.
The person who said
they were there for me
isn't there anymore,
and I'm not really comfortable
discussing things openly
with anyone else right now.
They don't know me well enough
to be as objective as they
should be, could be, or would be
if they knew me better.

At times I feel like a second thought.
I wonder what I'm doing here,
and why I'm even trying to
make things go the way I want them to go.
Can only one person fight a battle?
When is it no longer worth the fight?
I just don't feel special…
I feel like "just another person" in the lines of life…
and I don't like feeling that way.

I'm so tired that I can't sleep…
The past few days I've had
maybe 6 hours of sleep.
it's getting harder and harder
to have the energy and strength
for everything that I'm going through.
I'm overloading myself in ways
that I know aren't exactly healthy
to try and "escape"…
I need to slow down.
My brain needs to slow down.

What's important to me right now:

• My best friend
  

• Being open to loving again

• Being made to feel special

• Mentally slowing down

• Learning more about wants/needs/desires/etc

What do you do when you feel all alone?
How do you handle the internal needs
and wants of your soul and heart
when you don't know which way to turn
and it seems like the walls of life are closing in on you?