identity

My identity is changing.

For at least the past year and a half I've maintained that I'm much more attracted to men than women, but emotionally I can be attracted to either gender. I've considered myself to be far closer to gay than straight, and am now starting to identify myself as bisexual.

Physically, I am without question far more attracted to men in general. Women will rarely turn my head just based on appearance alone, while that happens quite frequently with men.

However, I always seem to find a far stronger emotional bond with women. Maybe it's because it's too hard for me to get close to a man (I guess that would require getting up the courage to talk to one, no?) or maybe I'm not programmed that way. I don't see any reason why, in theory, I can't feel an emotional bond to either gender. But in practice it's nearly always women.

I suppose my theoretical identity, then, would be a bisexual with primarily gay tendancies.

So. I give up. I'm just going to call myself bisexual and be done with it because I like both genders though it would seem to be in different ways. How I relate to them is going to be too fluid to bother trying to pinpoint where, exactly, on the Kinsey scale I am. Mostly because I can't decide which set of attractions I want to base that on.