Reflection Of The Night

i just got done
chatting with you again
after along time,
i just thought of writing
this down although
there's really no point.

i never thought
it would feel so awkward
although honestly
i dont feel you, like before...
and a thousand unexplainable
emotions has gone through me again,
flashbacks of the past...
only to be washed away by alcohol...
and a few ciggerets
maybe, just maybe,
its enough to have known you
i accept the fact that
i indeed had fallen for you
i have accepted the fact
that i never owned you
but i reached the bottom already
there was nothing there
so I chose to rise up..
see the light again
although it was a hard climb
i aquired a few scars
when i was climbing up
and residues of the pain
you've cost me are still visible...
i dont love you as before...
but i always will...


admitting one's weakness...
or uncertainty
signifies strength
at least that's how i see it...