I'm calling it quits

so the older we get, the more life makes sense.
and the people you treasure may... leave
(or worse, forget you), at least you still have
the memories chained to you.
its tiring to think about love,
about vanity... right now i want to learn
how to seize the day... keep things real...
and stop bombarding other people with my depression...
Because its too pathetic and i should have been over this years ago)

i believe we create our own ghosts that haunts us
through or lives. it builds a wall around us that
prohibits us to see the truth... stagnating our growth
and understanding of the "life" we are living in...
i believe that life is a song that we have to learn...
it will be your choice to compose your own...
or just sing the one handed to you

im so tired of sulking into my self made melancholy.
it just seems that i am killing myself little by little...
the flight to freedom and happiness seems to be
out of reach for the moment...yes. the world maybe cruel,
but its not purely! it still contains reasons for us to be amazed,
touched, pleased.. it still contains enough reason for us to smile,
be thankful ...and to love.

i have decided to work on obtaining the strength
to make my life MINE, and to peel off insecurities,
depression.. and the like... after all, when i die
i will have to answer to myself...did i do it right---
did i make the most out of this short life?...
and my heart will decide that the life i've lived...
was mine after all