Quotes

The fear and anxiety of baring my soul
is transcended by the thrill and honor
and wonderfulness of being able to
touch and affect so many people...
having people look into my mind,
my imagination... into my heart and soul.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,
the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

Poetry is a deal of joy and pain and wonder,
with a dash of the dictionary.

You know you've read a good book when you
turn the last page and feel a little
as if you have lost a friend.

Writers seldom choose as friends those self-contained characters who are never in trouble, never unhappy or ill, never make mistakes and always count their change when it is handed to them.

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.
~ Isaac Asimov

Simple Man

Mama told me when I was young Come sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say. And if you do this It will help you some sunny day.
Take your time... Don't live too fast, Troubles will come and they will pass.
Go find a woman and you'll find love, And don't forget son, There is someone up above.
And be a simple kind of man. Be something you love and understand.
Be a simple kind of man. Won't you do this for me son, If you can?
Forget your lust for the rich man's gold All that you need is in your soul,
And you can do this if you try. All that I want for you my son, Is to be satisfied.
And be a simple kind of man. Be something you love and understand.
Be a simple kind of man. Won't you do this for me son, If you can?
Boy, don't you worry... you'll find yourself. Follow you heart and nothing else.
And you can do this if you try. All I want for you my son, Is to be satisfied.
And be a simple kind of man. Be something you love and understand.
Be a simple kind of man. Won't you do this for me son, If you can?

Random BSB Lyrics

Remember when...
Whenever we needed each other...
The best of friends like...sister and brother.
We understand...we'd never be...alone.
Those days are gone.
Now I want you so much.
The night is long...and I need your touch.
Don't know what to say.
Never meant to feel this way.
Don't wanna be...alone tonight.


What can I do...to make you mine?
Falling so hard...so fast this time.
What did I say?...What did you do?
How did I fall...in love with you?


I hear your voice...and I start to tremble.
Brings back the child...I resemble.
I cannot pretend...that we can still be friends.
Don't wanna be...alone tonight.


What can I do...to make you mine?
Falling so hard...so fast this time.
What did I say?...What did you do?
How did I fall...in love with you?


Who will want say this life.
That it has to be tonight.
Just need you to know...
I don't wanna live this life.
I don't wanna say goodbye.
With you I wanna spend...the rest of my life.


What can I do...to make you mine?
Falling so hard...so fast this time.
What did I say?...What did you do?
How did I fall...in love with you?


What can I do...to make you mine?
Falling so hard,..so fast this time.
Everything's changed...remember you.
How...did...I...fall...in love...with you?

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One by one,
the Penguins
are taking
my sanity

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Commandments

The real reason that we can't have
the Ten Commandments in a Courthouse?
You cannot post "Thou Shalt Not Steal,"
"Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery"
and "Thou Shall Not Lie"
in a building full of lawyers, judges andpoliticians!
It creates a hostile work environment!

remember me this way

Lyrics By Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.

"We've gone our own ways
and I know its for the best,
but sometimes I wonder
will I ever have a friend
like you again?"

OUR WORLD MIRRORS WHO WE ARE BACK TO US

"Any situation that you find yourself in,
is an outward reflection of
your inner state of beingness."
-- El Morya

When we get upset by something outside of us,
our reaction shows us that we have
an inner wound to be healed.

Just as we can be unconscious of our wounds,
we can also be unconscious of our strengths.
If you are really drawn to the positive qualities i
n another person, you are being invited
to own those same qualities in yourself.

"The people we are in relationship with
are always a mirror, reflecting our own beliefs,
and simultaneously we are mirrors
reflecting their beliefs. So relationship
is one of the most powerful tools for growth...
if we look honestly at our relationships
we can see so much about how we have created them."
-- Shakti Gawain

"Every artist dips his brush in his own soul,
and paints his own nature into his pictures."
-- Henry Ward Beecher

.....

You never know where you will be when your life starts... I think mine started at walmart, the day i met you....

Our Lady Peace Rocks

Dedicated To My Two Best Friends

So my two best friends, one has moved away, and the other... well we had some problems in the past, but are slowley starting to talk again, But I know things will never be how they used to be.
But I know they'll both always be near me, cause they are in my heart... and I know that the band that sings this is a band I hate..... but I like the lyrics to this song, and it says what I want to say... so to both of you, I hope you read this, and enjoy. Take care, I love you both

The things we did, the things we said keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us deep inside I know you are
Never gone, never far in my heart is where you are always close, everyday
Every step along the way even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah) Never gone
No no no I walk alone these empty streets there is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
(Somehow) Somehow you found a way to see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on I swear to you that you will be
Never gone, never far in my heart is where you are
Always close (always close) Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)
Never gone from me If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close) Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life) Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday Every step along the way
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are

Another Quote

Nothing is as real as a dream.
The world can change around you,
but your dream will not.
Responsibilities need not erase it.
Duties need not obscure it.
Because the dream is within you,
no one can take it away.
~unknown

...

I Think I Love Her

People In My Life

It's kind of funny, when you think about it ... The people that walk in your heart ... The ones that stay ... The ones that go .... Some encounters are so quick ... And others stay for awhile .... The impact may be small ... So that you don't even notice a difference .... But others you can't forget .... Because they changed your direction on the road .... There's ones that you may welcome .... And hope they make a home .... There's ones that make holes But from that you learn and grow .... From my life what I have gathered .... Is there are two people I will know .... Ones that stay .... And ones that go ... So, my heart will remain open ... And what you choose is up to you

Trust Yourself

"I never know what the next lesson is going to be,
because we’re not supposed to know;
we’re supposed to trust ourselves to discover it."
-- Melody Beattie
"I trust so much in the power of the heart and the soul;
I know that the answer to what we need
to do next is in our own hearts. All we have to do is listen,
then take that one step further and trust what we hear.
We will be taught what we need to learn."
-- Melody Beattie
"Ultimately, we must learn to trust ourselves.
When we do this intimately and intelligently,
the world opens full of meaning before us.
We find that we ourselves are the doorway
to a fathomless understanding of the source of life itself.
We need only to learn to walk through it."
-- James Thornton

Over

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like that we'll build em up again
So here your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And ill be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know
Don't want to be the one to chase you
But at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And ill be the first to go

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And ill be the first to go

Everything I Tell You Is A Lie

Words are half-truths.

Because words can never fully convey
the depth of what it is you feel.
Of what it is you experience,
endure, cherish, and treasure.
What is the consequence of such a realisation,
on the weakness of the language we so steep ourselves in?

Everything we say is a lie.

How so? Are not words at the very least half truths?
The essence of human understanding is to be brought up
on the existence of whole truths. That whole truths are
what define our comprehension of our surroundings.
Because the natural, indeed primal, reaction
we are to give to anything that does not constitute
something we wholly understand, is almost always instantly fear.

We fear the barely understood paranormal.
We fear undocumented 'regimes' and their WMD's (or lack thereof).
We fear ideologies we do not understand,
or political concepts we cannot grasp.
We fear the weird, the strange, the unique,
and the different. We fear change.

Because we do not understand.
Because all that we know of
what is not our own, are half truths.
Anything less than absolute truth,
we treat as a lie. Is it not a pillar
of judicial practice to swear
to tell the truth, the whole truth,
and nothing but the truth?
Our courtrooms cannot accept half truths.
Our juries, our judges, and our executioners,
cannot accept half truths.

Why then, do we not fear
the spoken and written word?
Why do we not fear language?

Anyone who has been passionate
about anything, be it a burning love,
or a cold, self-consuming hate,
will understand what it is like
to be chained by words,
to be held back from expressing
how they truly feel and wish to convey.
Because they know, as do I,
as do many others, I suspect,
that words, are half truths.

Can you fully comprehend,
experience, and delve into
what it means to say I Love You?
Or to see it written out to you?
Can you ever fully picture
what must have gone
through someone's heart, and soul,
as they uttered or penned those words?
No, you can't. For we are crippled
by our own ways of communication.
We are steeped in lies. These lies are words.

By right then, you should feel fear,
when someone utters the words I Love You.
You should be afraid,
when someone tells you
what they claim to be the truth.
For everything that is ever said, or spoken, is a lie.

Everything I tell you is a lie.

So I just added a few posts, they are mostly older stuff that I just have not had time to put on here... well I hope you all enjoy. Take care,

Peace, I'm Out

Quotes

The path to our destination is not always a straight one.
We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back.
Maybe it doesn't matter which road we embark on.
Maybe what matters is that we embark. - Barbara Hall

StAy A wHiLe . . .aNd MaYbE tHeN yOu'LL SeE . . .a DiFfeReNt SiDe oF mE.

"I Wish i could just always be there for you.. but somehow,
i have the feeling that, that's the promise i cannot keep".

When The Want Is Gone

I have no want anymore. I have no life.
Please just let me die and get over this pain.
The teardrops fall, and I can't breathe.
My nose is too full. Yet no one knows.
My best friend sits right across town
yet she does not visit or call,
but really she is not my best friend.
I have lost her. I lost her awhile ago.
And I don't care. I do not have the energy to care.
Stop crying! Stop! But I can't because what do I have?
Nothing. I have no desire anymore to do anything.
Just let me curl up in a ball and die please. Please.
I guess I am not strong. I can't handle this. What do I want?
There is nothing. There is no one. No one who cares at all.
I am depressed, but I can't get help.
I usually can put on the facade and everyone thinks
that everything is okay. But it's not okay.
It is almost as far away from okay as you can get before you die.
I want to kill myself. But I am scared.
I guess I just discovered my want.

so don't think to far into this, and don't worry about me killing myself,
i only want to now and then but I don't have the guts to go through with it
and besides as they say "This to shall pass"

I just want to know....

I just don't understand.
Why can't I have it.
The tears come down.
This will never end.
I won't kill myself though,
because I have that stupid hope.
Hope that things will get better.
But they never do.
People say God has
a plan for everything.
Well he has a pretty
crappy plan for me,
if that's even true.
Which I doubt it is.
That's probably why...
I don't think I really believe.
I mean trust me,
my life is pretty good.
Except the one thing I really want,
and I've wanted for quite some time.
But it's so important to me,
that is seems to cancel out
anything good that happens.
It shouldn't mean so much. but it does.
Everyone else gets turn after turn,
while I don't even get one.
I don't understand.
I'm so horrible.
I really want something
horrible to happen
to some of these people
so they'd understand.
STOP it. Stop telling me
to smile and be happy.
YOU don't know.
You don't know anything about it,
and you never will.
And the ones that kill me the most
are the ones who don't believe at all.
How can His plan for them be so good,
when they flat out say He isn't there.
Which is why I'm becoming one of them...
I don't want to though.
But really, I don't understand.

You Make Me Feel

You make me feel... strange,
like I don't quite know how to read you.
You make me feel... lead on,
but I shouldn't feel that way,
because all you did was smile at me.
You make me feel... wonderful,
and so glad to have you as a friend.
You make me feel... insecure about myself.
You make me feel... like a dork.
You make me feel... smart.
You make me feel... confused,
like I want to like you,
but you also make me feel comfortable.
You make me feel... happy,
you are always so nice
and I want more, maybe.
You make me feel... valuable,
You make me feel... i dont know.

So I have found someone new in life,
that I really enjoy talking to.
Someone from work said,
they can tell by the way
I act around her
that I really like her.
She has some issues to work out though
before we can be any thing other than friends....
but I fine just being friends with her...
She is such a great person

I enjoy spending time with her...
and I hope she knows I am talking about her
when she reads this...

Resiliet

I am amazed at how resilient the human body can be.
You fall down and break your leg,
you bleed and the skin reforms,
you bruise and the multi colors
fade back to their original shade.
But there is one part of the body
that takes so much longer to heal.
The pain is almost unbearable at times
and your whole heart and soul hurts.
So badly. And no one can see the healing,
because sometimes it doesn't happen
for a very long time. And sometimes I wonder if it ever will.

More than life

I wish. I wish... Do I know what I wish?
Am I certain what I wish is what I want?
No. I guess I don't. But I have a saying
that is helping to guide my life right now.
Not a saying really... just an ultimate goal I guess.
To have a positive impact on the lives of others.
Someone once told me I have shining eyes.
Do you see it? I can see it in some people.
It's not necessarily a happiness.
But I read people's eyes when they sparkle.
Sometimes it's an innocence.
Sometimes it's a desperation.
But I can see it.
It's just a whole emotion
that needs to be released.
Eventually it must be released.
I wish so much right now.
But is it selfish of me?
A lot of what I wish is selfish.
But isn't everyone?
That is why my ultimate want
is something I thought
was completely selfless.
Making a postive impact on others.
But really, I do it for myself too...
because it gives me such a good feeling.
I could float on air at times.
I have gotten to know some people
really well in my life.

Not ordinary people though.
I sound crazy, because
I have studied these characters.
And they are only characters,
not people, but for me,
no matter how close I get to them,
it is only an illusion.
For the characters it is a reality.
I understand that no matter how well
I think I know someone,
I can't really know them.
No one can.
It is impossible to comprehend
someone else's motivations and feelings.
But I think it is very important to try.
To love someone for who they are,
even without knowing them,
is one of the best feelings
in the human experience.

its so... I don't know... I just don't know

Sometimes life is so sad without you even realizing why.
Music is so powerful... it makes me sentimental.
When I listen to certain music it makes memories resurface
and a lot of times it makes me so sad at what I have lost,
what I haven't accomplished, what I thought I would be now that I'm not.
It's time. Time moves much too quickly and once you've wasted it,
you can't get it back. That sounds obvious, but it is so true.
I want so much. And I can't have it, because the time is gone.
Sometimes I just feel so lost... I just don't know

....Maybe thats why they call it reality

sometimes we get stuck with the present
and we don't know what to do next.
or the best way to put it is,
we prefer to get stuck with the present.
and the next hardest thing to do
when you get to that point is,
you have to decide whether
to hold on... or to move forward.
i'm like that now,... not knowing
when to hold on ... and when to let go.
i read somewhere that "we are all like dogs..
that we have bad habits and will continue
to do them unless we are trained or reprimanded"....
yeah, we don't usually change unless we really want to.
i mean, sometimes we go through the notions
and appear to change, or even we did try to change a bit.
but the reality is, we're just NOT doing it.....
for us to truly change, we have to get hurt.
and i don't want to reach this point.
i know i need to move on. but i can't.
and i don't want to. because i am me.
and i have all the right to be me.
sure, i am Not perfect... i am guilty,
but i'm happy! ... and confused.
it might just be a phase that i'm passing through.
but the truth is, reality sucks!
then maybe that's why it's called reality.

....

I'm feeling alone. But this is a different alone than usual. I've been alone my whole life. The oddball, the loner, the strange kid that didn't fit in with his family, with his peers, with his friends. But this alone is so much harder to take.I finally fit in. I've found people who completely accept me. And I feel loved, truly loved, by my friends for the first time ever. Mind you, the family department is quite slacking, but for the most part, I'm content with the people around me. But when I'm surrounded by people, I've been getting these feelings that I'm not really there. Like I'm watching these people. And I'm imagining myself talking. And it's like no matter who's around me, half of my soul is looking for someone who feels alone like I do, that wants to be with me on some other plane of reality that I haven't found, because that's when I can finally feel at ease. My physical and mental being is fine, but part of me is restless, there's something huge missing. And at little times, I feel that it's there, I'm complete. But I can't place what that is, and can't seem to figure out how to keep it. I've just felt so damn miserable and alone, and I'm sick of watching everyone else "have" something, while I'm so fucked up that I can't even see what it is that's wrong. I just wish I could be normal. Even if that means being as ignorant as 90% of the people my age. Because I'd be happy, and content with what I know, and what I see, and what I feel. And they don't have to think any deeper than that. Oh fuck it all.

Everything you need to know you can learn from Blues Clues

What I have learned from Steve and Blue's clue's:
Look people in the eyes.
Really listen.
Ask for help.
Get others opinions.
Play something everyday.
Let others choose the game.
Don't be afraid to look like a goober.
encourage one another.
Find something that looks good on you, stick with it.
There are a lot of things in life to sing about.
To be friends, you must be friendly.
When the mood hits, just dance.
Always consider your audience.
Never be in to much a hurry to not stop and help the little people.
Love the little people as well as the one's that bring you things.
Really become friends with your pets.
Maintain your childlike innocence.
Admit your limits.
Admit your fears.
Being silly is charming.
Learn a musical instrument.
Bright colorful houses house bright colorful people.
Even when you know the answers, pretend you don't to make other people feel better.
Affirm yourself and others everyday.
Routines are a very good thing.
Felt can be your friend.
You can have a lot of fun living in your own house without Grandma around.
If no one sees you eating, you won't gain weight from it.
Dogs only talk when they sing the blues.
Go ahead and talk to your condiments.
Take advantage of any excuse to do a silly dance.
Friends keep sending you letters even if you never write them back.
There's room for two in the Thinking Chair ...!

Poprocks and Coke

Wherever you go You know I’ll be there
If you go far, You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere, So I’ll see you there

You place the name You know I’ll be there
You name the time You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare Keep in mind I’ll be there for you

Where there’s truth You know I’ll be thereA
mongst the lies You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare Keep in mind I’ll be there for you

If you should fall You know I’ll be there
To catch the call You I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare Keep in mind
I don’t care I’ll be there for you

Will You Remember Me???

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Yea So My Car Is Now Fixed... I am so happy, I hate trying to get rides to work and home.... I don't know how I'd ever make it without a car. Well sorry to cut this so short but I have a few things to do then I have to go to bed, cause I got to get up early for work tomorrow.

Yea So God Hates Me....

I have managed to break 2 cars in 2 days..... how bad of luck do you have to have? Erica, Ray, and me fixed my moms car tues night into early wends morn... we got home about 4am, but my car as of now is still broke down, we are going to try to get it fixed today. Well anyways, just wanted to make a quick post, sorry for not updating in the past few days, been having car trouble. Well I promise to post more soon.....

if tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them
never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance
to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
In case tomorrow never comes

Dance

"I Hope You Dance" by Lee Ann Womack


I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance I hope you dance

Tell me who Wants to look back on their years
and wonder Where those years have gone

Butterflies

A Quote I Found

"never settle for anything less then butterflies
the butterflies in my stomach they could bring me to my knees
There aren't very many people that can give you butterfly's.
So when you find some one that can...... Never let them go.
But that's just it; the butterflies never seem to accompany the right people.
And all the people who are right for you,
they never make your stomach go flip-flop
There are not many people in this world
with the ablility to give you butterflies,
and if you dont tell those people how you feel,
It'll be like spending the rest of your life in your own personal prison.
LiVE for the moments that bring
butterflies to your stomache; and smiles to your face."

Untitled

I didn't wanna leave,
but we both know
sometimes its better
just to go.
somehow I know
we'll meet again
not sure quite where
and I dont know just when.
just know you're in
my heart until then.
I have faith that things
will work out for the best,
that whatever sent us
off in different directions
is the very same thing
that will bring us
back together again

moving on ... letting go.... sorda

I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done
and all the things that I said
that has brought about the current
events in my life.... but one thing

I don't regret... is having the chance

to meet someone so wonderful
and have so many days spent with them
in both laughter and in tears.
I have however learned that
things change & people change.
and it doesn't mean - you forget the past
or try to cover it up it simply means
that you M0ve 0n & treasure the memories..
letting go doesn't mean giving up
it just means accepting that
some things just werent meant to be.
The greatest challenge in life
is to find someone who knows
all your flaws, diffrences and mistakes
yet still loves everything about you
maybe some people aren't meant
to be in our lives... foever
maybe some are just passing through
too teach us a lesson
in everyones life there will always be
those people that you love,
those people that you hate
and those people whom you can't get enough of.
and every now and then, you wake up to a day
that affects your whole life
the day in your life when you know
you'll never be the same again

the day that changes the way you think about
everything and everyone
and sometimes on those day...

things happen... for whatever reason
and you are forced to do
the hardest thing in life

there is to do, and that is
let go and say goodbye

but just don't forget...

that even though people change
the people who come in and out of your life

will always be your friends...

and I know for me,

even though endings are painful

there are some people in my life

with whom I'd do it all over again

just for one more day, of having that friend

Never felt so lonley

So yesterday, I was cleaning my room... and listening to the radio.
I didn't think that was a bad thing to do, I didn't realize however...
How much stuff in my room reminds me of you.... everything
and every song that came on.... is was about you....
So I ended up no cleaning, but instead going threw letters you wrote
poems you wrote, and pictures you drew... thinking about you
then I came across a picture of you, and as I sit there staring at it
It hit me, that I don't think I've ever been this lonley before in my life

I'll Meet You There...

Now you're gone,I wonder why You left me here,
I think about it on, and on, and on, and on, and on, again.
I know you're never coming back,I hope that you can hear me,
I'm waiting to hear from you..Until i do,You're gone away,I'm left alone,
A part of me is gone, And I'm not moving on, So wait for me,
I know the day will come..I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me to,I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you here,I'll meet you there.
I wish I could have told you,The things I kept inside,
But now I guess its just too late. So many things remind me of you,
I hope that you can hear me,I miss you,This is goodbye,One last time..
You're gone away,I'm left alone,A part of me is gone,And I'm not moving on,
So wait for me,I know the day will come..I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me to,I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you here,I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me to,I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you here,I'll meet you there.
I'll meet you there....And where I go you'll be there with me,
Forever you'll be right here with me..I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me to,I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you here,I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me..I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you..I'll meet you there...I'll meet you there...

True Love Is Not....

SEX!
True love is NOT based on sexual love.
Many people confuse LOVE with sex,
and this is a very sad situation.
Those who are engaged
in premarital sex will not be able
to distinguish "true love" when their emotions
are all tied up with sexual love.
Sex is a gift from God
reserved strictly for marriage!
Likewise, those who want to marry
just to fulfill a sexual need
are always disappointed!
Many married couples with children
find very little time for intimacy,
especially during the early childhod years.
If your relationship is based on sex
before and/or after marriage,
you can be sure problems will arise!
True love combined with sexual love
between two married people
is a wonderful gift from God,
important to the oneness of the relationship,
but NOT the end all to "married life"!
If you take one thing from this site to your heart,
it is my sincerest hope you will hear this message.
Marriage is so much more than "SEX"!
Making this your priority or basing your marriage on this
will ALWAYS lead to heartache. Keep sex in perspective
as to what God has intended it to be! Otherwise,
you will find yourself never sastified.....
and the result is devastating!

What You See!
True love is NOT found on the outside!
You know the old story....
"You can't judge a good book by its cover!".
Marrying someone because they are "good looking"
and that reflects well on you, will not bring you happiness!
True love looks at people from the inside,
this is where "true beauty" lies,
make no mistake about this one!
People who "seem" average on the outside
become above average when you get to know
the real person that lives inside.
There are many, many single people
who would make fabulous mates,
but are overlooked because
they won't make the cover of your favorite magazine.
Being outwardly focused will always lead to heartache!
The message here is that true Love rests
deep inside within the heart, NEVER on the outside!
We must turn our eyes inward when seeking a lifetime mate!
What you don't see.......is exactly what you get!!

Rescuing!
True love is NOT ruining your life
because someone has a problem.
Everyone is responsible for their own
life, actions and decisions.
If someone's decisions in life
is making you "crazy" or
you are trying to control their behavior,
you are more than likely
hurting them and yourself.
True love can only lie in the person
who takes care of themself.
Are you putting your life
and happiness in jeopardy
because of someone else's bad behavior?

If your considering marriage
and you are presently unhappy,
controlling, enabling, or pushing aside
someones bad behavior,
you will find yourself in a world of misery!
It is NOT LOVE to "rescue" someone
from their own decisions!!!
Everyone must pay their own consequences
for their own actions! You cannot "save" someone from themself.

Selfish!
True love is NOT selfish! Selfish people make miserable mates!
True love finds itself in unselfish people.
Unselfish people know they get the most
joy out of life when they give to others.
There is no better joy in this world than to give.
Selfish people care only about themselves
and what they have and want.
Meeting each others needs is so very important
in a healthy marriage. Selfish people will find it impossible
to give you what YOU may need because their needs
will always come first!

Monetary!
True love is NOT measured in dollars!
No amount of money in the world will bring you true love!
The love of money is the "root of all evil!"
Money makes people do things that they would not normally do.
If you think you have to marry money
find love and to have a good marriage
and/or your problems will go away, you are sadly mistaken!
Problems just get more expensive with money!

Low Self Worth!
True love is NOT found in an unhealthly self esteem!
How many people in this world believe
that love will make them happy! If you are not happy now,
no one else can bring that to you! You need to find your own love
in yourself before you can adequately love anyone else.
There is a terrible fairly tale out there that says
"just find a man/woman" then, you'll be happy.
Happy marriages are found in two people
who already love and care about who they are now.
They are not looking for a partner to "prove" they are loveable.
Likewise, when you feel inside that you are worthy....
you will make better choices. People who are hurting
and feel unloved sometimes will turn to the first person
to come along to fill the emptiness they feel.
More than likely this will not result in a healthy marriage.
If you find yourself in this situation you need to step back
from relationships and work deep inside yourself t
o find the root cause of your unhappiness. Until then,....
you will not be able to make the best choice
you deserve to make for yourself!

Verbally or Physically Abusive!
True love is NOT abusive! Without a doubt,
any type of abusive behavior by either person
is NOT LOVE! Love is the gentleness of the human heart!
Love does not bear pain. Intentional pain inflicted
"out of Love" is as far away from the truth you can get.
Love builds up, never tears down!
Verbal or physical abuse is an illness
regardless of the reason someone may give for inflicting it.
This type of behavior is never a candidate for marriage.
ANY type of abuse before marriage is a guarantee
to continue when married. Counseling for the abuser
is the ONLY next step there is!

(i have some things to work on - yes indeed)

here... you can have it

A well-known speaker started off his seminar
by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked,
"Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give
this $20 to one of you
but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up
the $20 dollar bill. He then asked,
"Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into
the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned

a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money,

you still wanted it because

it did not decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives,

we are dropped, crumpled,

and ground into the dirt

by the decisions we make

and the circumstances

that come our way.

We feel as though

we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened

or what will happen,

you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,

you are still priceless to those who

DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives

comes not in what we do or who we know,

but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special- Don't EVER forget it."

When It Hurts So Bad

“Suicide is not chosen;
it happens when
pain exceeds resources
for coping with pain.”

Suicide is a needless
& permanent solution
to short-term problems

Random Post About The Day

today was just a day where i was in a bad mood most of it
i hate it when im like that too b/c i just get so grrr but yeah...
been like that off and on a lot here lately and i dont know why..
my good friend Erica has helped me get past some of it though
She's such a cool kid it seems things are good for a while
then as good as they were the bad doubles... i hate it b/c
then i fight with my mom anad i snap at people for no reason
tonight i went out with my little cousin and we went to the movies
we saw Charlie and the chocolate factory, (which i have seen 2 times now)
then i came home ... nothin too excitin but hey it was somethin to do
well I may add a little more later, if not i will add more soon.