I walk alone

It was said to me...

Why, despite everything,
do you still go on the line
that you've chosen to?
Inspite of all that we,
your friends,
have advised you against?

It pains me that my friends
seem to want me to go back
into my lil bubble world.
And that it's an endless cycle
of expectations on this matter.
And I cannot find a way
to remind them that
the essence of our friendship
is to be there at the bottom of the bridge,
to catch the other when one jumps...

Maybe that's why today,
after so many days,
I am going to fall back on
the words of Algernon Black:

Why not let people differ
about their answers to
the great mysteries of
the Universe?
Let each seek one's
own way to the highest,
to one's own sense
of supreme loyalty in life
~ one's ideal of life.
Let each philosophy,
each world-view
bring forth its truth
and beauty to a larger perspective,
that people may grow
in vision, stature and dedication.

Why can't we all just move from apathy,
from an acceptance of the evils in life,
to face the possibilities of the world,
to make life sweet for one another instead of bitter?

I believe in being merciful,
and with that comes forgiveness.

I believe that justice
will eventually prevail
and that the Heavens'
have eyes who sees what I don't.

So why can't everyone
who cares for me
then believe in my beliefs?
Why make an already
awkward life even more so,
by pushing things
such that some journeys,
I choose to walk alone?

What happened to
"Be there for the joy.
Be there for the tears.
Be there for each other"?

A friend speaks out

This was sent to me from a friend:

I heard this song and thought of you, and I wanted to share the song with you, so here's my thoughts mixed in... I think you will appreciate the style it's wrote in, since it's one you use quite often

From a friend to a stranger
How's your life in your current situation
Did they hold you hostage
Did they tell you lies
Just to add to your frustration

You know it'd be really considerate if you kept in contact more often. I know you're making many choices right now. Just be chary of which one you choose to make. Not everyone who says they are your buddy is. Be careful. Guard your back and protect your heart right now more than ever.

So you drown the whole day in your troubled heart
On the road to change your life
Not to give it all away
But to sing your song
'Cause in the end that's when you arrive

I know you are trying to adjust your life for the better, but you're not looking past the past. Open your lips, grow some balls, and have a in the flesh talk with him. You have so much to offer someone. You need to realize what that is, and go from there. Open your heart up to other things. Listen to what your mind is saying!

Oh, my heart it brings me pain
When I hear them call your name
Oh, to see inside myself
A guy can see what no one else could ever know
The way you'd end up being

It breaks my heart to watch you fight and go down from a distance, with no one there to pick up back up. What hurts me more is seeing people make you fall, only to stand there for the delight of trying to watch you stand back up strong again. They aren't making you stronger by doing this, they are only breaking you down.

So, from a friend to a stranger
How's your life in your current situation
Wish you happiness and freedom
And I wish you life
When you reach your destination

I wish you happiness. Just. Be. Careful. I love you. I'd rather hear smiles in your voice than listen to you try to choke back the tears.

Some People

Some People

Inspire you to go beyond what you can do. The methods with which they do, could be either persuasive, coersive or abusive. No matter which they employ, it is only with your best interest(s) at heart, and that is all that matters.

Persuades you to see the other side of the coin. Sometimes they might do the Jedi-mind-trick on ya, especially when the coin only has one side. But the fact that they made you look, is a first.

Brings sense to the senseless. It could be with statements of motivation, bashing on the head or just by being there. There's just something about it that cannot be explained when the impossible is made to be seen as possible.

And I just want to say thanks to that ONE PERSON, who despite being equally busy himself, can still find time to be all of what SOME PEOPLE are to me.

No amount of thanks can be said to relay the depth of the past few days. I can only hope that one day, I would be able to reciprocate the same in turn, when the moment calls for it.

Big hug Nate!