The BS of life

The best moment to fool yourself
is the moment you think
you’ve got your life all figured out.

It’s the moment you look back
and reflect at what you’ve got
going on for you at the moment
and relish in every one
of your good fortunes

You might think,
hey, I am what I am;
nobody can tell me
what to do with my life,
nobody can tell me
how to think or feel.

I know myself.

Or so you believe.

Until experience shoves
an elephant up your ass.
It doesn’t hit you that all
the bullshit you have been
feeding yourself about what
you personally think you believe
about your life and everything else in general,
is also being sucked and chewed
and digested by this strange,
new monstrosity you think you reign.
All you care about is that
you’re giving all that shit away.
The shit you believe
you earned the rights to give,
because it is your shit.

Just because you think the elephant
is sitting beneath your ass,
with you on the head,
as if you’re king. Or queen.

And when you see how the elephant
stops swallowing your BS
and chews and spits it out in return,
you feel the splatter in your face.

You then start blaming the elephant
for not knowing what is good for itself.
Just because it doesn’t
want to buy your shit, anymore.
It doesn’t seem to matter to you
how the elephant is still there,
right beneath your ass.
The elephant stays,
but all you care about
is how it wouldn’t eat your shit anymore.

Perhaps, the only time you realize
how your shit is not even that good to swallow,
that it took years and years
of shoving down the elephant’s throat
for it to get used to eating your shit,
that now it gobbles up your shit voluntarily,
is when you feel the elephant’s head moving, for once.

It finally decides to move on.
It is ready to let you take your fall,
so that you will learn how to get up; on your own.

You and the pile of shit you made.

This may be the only time you realize
how after years of churning out this BS,
you’ve never actually tasted
and chewed and swallowed it for yourself before.

And when you finally do try
to bite your own bullet,
you will be amazed with the amount
of BS the elephant tolerated
from you all this while.