So this is how it ends

SO THIS IS HOW IT ENDS

Dear someone
I'm sorry I signed off on you.... i wanted to say so much, but knew it would get us no where. I felt i would be wasting our time.... so I ran away, which is what I am so good at doing. This will be the last anything from me to you though... I know as well as you that we are over. Just neither of us has said it. I wish you nothing but the best. And I hope you find yourself while you are gone. I'm sorry I won't be here for you when you come back. I just can't wait around... I would never ask you to wait for me... I hope you understand, and I'm sorry if I am being selfish. I changed my SN, so if you want to contact me, you have my email. I don't think talking though through phone, or IM is the best thing right now. Cause I am sure I would say something stupid, that would make you feel bad for doing what you are doing, and I don't want you to feel bad... As I have said so many times in the past, do what makes you happy, and don't worry about anyone else. I am giving up on us though... I don't think things will ever work the way I want them, and you say you want them to work. I'm finding it hard to trust you again, for reason, I'll explain if you want me to, but not on here... I don't know.. like I said, I'm sorry for the way things turned out, and I'm sorry if I had anything to do with it... I hope you find someone who treats you good, and loves your son... the way I did. And again I'm sorry... for me running away... but we both knew that I would if things didn't change soon. I'm not good at long distance friendships (ask Joey), much less a relationship. And again, I wish you the best, and hope you find happiness out there.

Chris