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Ok so while reading an old friends blog, I came across something that said something was said about me or something... and she took up for me... I think.. anyways, I just wanted to tell her thanks, and wondered what was said, and who said it... anyways, I am going to bed now, I am going to try to get up early and go get my check and do some stuff before I have to go to work.

I'm Sick... and that sucks

i'm sick like awfully sick right now. urgh.
i had a splitting headache when i woke up
and I had it most of the day....
after about 14 exedrine pills
and about 2 hours in my room
no lights... no sounds.. it finally went away
and now i have a freaking bad sore throat.
and my nose hardly lets me breathe properly.
been breathing through my mouth. urgh.
I hope I feel better tomorrow, cause I have to work
and I feel bad when I call in.. so again...
I really hope I feel better tomorrow when I wake up

what could you expect....

what could you expect from someone...
someone you barely knew...
someone, who is a friend...
someone...
no matter who this someone is,
all you can expect is nothing...
never would you try to expect that someone
to be able to know what you are thinking
or what you want to them to do...
it always has been a common notion
that if you have a friend you would be able
to expect something from them,
just because they are your friend...
is it really true that friends know who you really are...
then why do our enemies know what to do...
and our friends can't do anything...
is this how friendship really is...
how then can you say that your friendship is true...
what is your reason for staying as friends...
or are we just fulfilling the saying that
"No Man is an Island"
or is it our nature to socialize like the animals
for we too are animals...
no matter what,
no matter how,
no matter when,
no matter why,
there will always be a sense of belongingness
or the need to belong...
is this the role of friendship
to be able to think and feel that
you belong to some kind of organization or group...
then friendship doesn't neccessarily have to be real...
then what is the basis of real friendship...

Why are you here

life is full of challenges
life brings so many things
gives us so much
let us experience a lot
gave us a good lesson and a beating
life could never be fun
without its unpredictablity
life may also be at your side
and against you
you may not like it or not but you have a life
a life of your own,
at first we depend too much on our parents
then we depend on our siblings and friends
when will we learn to stop on relying to
other people and not just ourselves...
why is it that we say that we live separate lives
yet we could not exist withouth each other
we could never be us with out each other
life has its end but will we know when our time is up
or how long do we really have to live
why waste your time finding out how long
you would want to live
why not just live your life the way you want it
so you'll have no regrets before the end
never will you waste another time of your life
on such small worthless thigns that seemed
to matter to you so much
not all things will come your way
you may not be able to do the things
you want...
but endings things with a happy
and meaningfull sure beats a life
kept in a box...
you started in a womb..
an enclosed safe place...
you live your life in a world..
full of challenging things...
a part of a bigger whole...
you end up in a box..
a glass window for everyone to see you
for the last time...
buried 6 feet under...
incinerated at 3000 C...
no more goodbye..
just the life your liveing..
that is the final goodbye...
so are we here to prepare
for our last goodbye...
or are we here to create
a difference in this big big unniverse...
what is your purpose???
what are you???
who are you???
why are you here???

just me speaking

is there such a thing as
a piece of heaven on earth???
why do people always feel
so high when they're so happy
yet when their sad its as if
they cant get any lower
what with this world??
why do things always have to happen???
why can't things just go the way we want them to...
or is is it to much too ask for...
but life sure is pretty interestting...
i can't imagine life without the choices that we make,
either good or bad...
life's question WHAT IF,
the greatest question that one
might ask after or before
he chooses a choice in life...
it may either be life altering
or just plain old decisions...
why do we even bother to think about
the other choice that we could have choosen??
what more can we do? its done...
the same circumstances would never arrive again...
isn't it just a waste of time...
or are people just too damn stupid
or hooked up to the past
the things they should have done
or shouldn't have done...
the hell with all this WHAT if!!!!
you have to stand up to your desicions!!!!
ALL OF WILL DIE SOONER OR LATER...
its a fact...
so why should we stop ourselves
from living life to the fullest???
is it because where just human???
the hell with that kind of reason...
we have a mind yet we let our hearts
tell us what we should do...
isn't it that the mind is the one
controlling the heart
not the other way around...
this is just me speaking...

what are you doing?
waht are your plans for the future?
what are you doing for your future?
what can you do to achieve your future?
what is in life?
why are you so ignorant?
why are you lazy?
why are you wasting your time on foolish things?
why are you throwing away the opportunities?
why can't you understand life?
what is life? isn't life the thing
that makes us move and do what we do..
is life the source of all things?
is life the true source of everything?
why do we exist in this world?
why were we given minds to think?
why were we given hands?
why were we given feet?
why were we given eyes?
why are we what we are right now?
isn't it that we have a purpose why we are here
what is our true purpose?
are we meant for each other?
are we meant to live alone?
are we meant to die alone?
are we supposed to love?
are we suppposed to ask questions?
whats in this world for us?
why?

there are things that i wish
i could have done in a different way...
but theres no turning back time...
living this life full of regrets
is like living with out a purpose..

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Ok So I Am Slacking On Updating :), I Will Try To Update More Today Since I Am Off, But That All Denpends On If And How Long Helen And I Do Something Today.