It's Been Awhile

So I Finally have internet access at my new home, which means i am going to work on getting this place back to what it was, hopefully if i had any frequant readers they will start returning, and reading again, and if not, then at least it is somewhere i can put everything i like all in one place :), be it poems, lyrics, rants, and such, well I don't have alot of time right now to write cause i have to go pick up my little cousin form a dance, but I wanted to put these lyrics on here

Maroon 5
"Sweetest Goodbye"

here you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand (ohh ohh ohh)
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you'll never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I

Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
And I know you'll understand
(yeah yeah yeah)
And with a tear in my eye
Gave me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever ever ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel.
Feel. Feel. Feel.

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Feel. Feel. Feel. Feel.

Oh Yeahh

It's Been Awhile

So I Finally have internet access at my new home, which means i am going to work on getting this place back to what it was, hopefully if i had any frequant readers they will start returning, and reading again, and if not, then at least it is somewhere i can put everything i like all in one place :), be it poems, lyrics, rants, and such, well I don't have alot of time right now to write cause i have to go pick up my little cousin form a dance, but I wanted to put these lyrics on here

Maroon 5
"Sweetest Goodbye"

here you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand (ohh ohh ohh)
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you'll never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I

Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
And I know you'll understand
(yeah yeah yeah)
And with a tear in my eye
Gave me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever ever ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel.
Feel. Feel. Feel.

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Feel. Feel. Feel. Feel.

Oh Yeahh

It's Been Awhile

So I Finally have internet access at my new home, which means i am going to work on getting this place back to what it was, hopefully if i had any frequant readers they will start returning, and reading again, and if not, then at least it is somewhere i can put everything i like all in one place :), be it poems, lyrics, rants, and such, well I don't have alot of time right now to write cause i have to go pick up my little cousin form a dance, but I wanted to put these lyrics on here

Maroon 5
"Sweetest Goodbye"

here you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand (ohh ohh ohh)
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you'll never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I

Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
And I know you'll understand
(yeah yeah yeah)
And with a tear in my eye
Gave me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever ever ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you've come back
I have some thing to say

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home (home)
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel.
Feel. Feel. Feel.

How does it feel to know
you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here
that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Feel. Feel. Feel. Feel.

Oh Yeahh

Just shades of grey

There is no true Right or Wrong.
No absolute Good or Evil.
No Truth... No Lies.
No Black or White.
Everything is relative, perceived.
There are Just Shades of Grey.

Just shades of grey

There is no true Right or Wrong.
No absolute Good or Evil.
No Truth... No Lies.
No Black or White.
Everything is relative, perceived.
There are Just Shades of Grey.

Just shades of grey

There is no true Right or Wrong.
No absolute Good or Evil.
No Truth... No Lies.
No Black or White.
Everything is relative, perceived.
There are Just Shades of Grey.

So I have a site on deviant art, and you should check it out, i put some pictures on it today, and anyways... just check it out

http://justmeisalliam.deviantart.com/

So I have a site on deviant art, and you should check it out, i put some pictures on it today, and anyways... just check it out

http://justmeisalliam.deviantart.com/

So I have a site on deviant art, and you should check it out, i put some pictures on it today, and anyways... just check it out

http://justmeisalliam.deviantart.com/

sublime, thats what you are
you are naturally majestic..
this life is wicked...
complicated, full of tragedy
you're the only remedy i take in
to keep my sanity
you make me fall into an endless trance
every second mezmerizes me
you're the only thing
that surprises my tired conscious
keep tallking... please
i cant bear the silence
it yields me into my turbulent mind
i cant take the blows of pain!
that no one could ever explain, nor experience
i want to breakdown and cry
but my tears refuse to flow
i cannot hold it in anymore,
im going to burst into a million pieces
so used to being inside
will you walk with me?
but i need to sleep
to learn the things
that i should have learned before
maybe its enough
maybe i should stop thinking
about my fondness for you
i have proven that
in the end...
we are two souls that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

sublime, thats what you are
you are naturally majestic..
this life is wicked...
complicated, full of tragedy
you're the only remedy i take in
to keep my sanity
you make me fall into an endless trance
every second mezmerizes me
you're the only thing
that surprises my tired conscious
keep tallking... please
i cant bear the silence
it yields me into my turbulent mind
i cant take the blows of pain!
that no one could ever explain, nor experience
i want to breakdown and cry
but my tears refuse to flow
i cannot hold it in anymore,
im going to burst into a million pieces
so used to being inside
will you walk with me?
but i need to sleep
to learn the things
that i should have learned before
maybe its enough
maybe i should stop thinking
about my fondness for you
i have proven that
in the end...
we are two souls that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

sublime, thats what you are
you are naturally majestic..
this life is wicked...
complicated, full of tragedy
you're the only remedy i take in
to keep my sanity
you make me fall into an endless trance
every second mezmerizes me
you're the only thing
that surprises my tired conscious
keep tallking... please
i cant bear the silence
it yields me into my turbulent mind
i cant take the blows of pain!
that no one could ever explain, nor experience
i want to breakdown and cry
but my tears refuse to flow
i cannot hold it in anymore,
im going to burst into a million pieces
so used to being inside
will you walk with me?
but i need to sleep
to learn the things
that i should have learned before
maybe its enough
maybe i should stop thinking
about my fondness for you
i have proven that
in the end...
we are two souls that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

I want an easy answer.
I want to take the back way out.
I want someone to make a decision for me.
I want to have to live with the consequences of that decision.
And if I don't like the outcome,
I want to be able to console myself
with the knowledge that
I did not put myself in that situation -
someone else did.
I want more time.
I don't want to have to make a decision right now.
It's not fair to expect me, at twenty one years old,
to know what I want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to sit down and have some coffee with someone.
I want to have a rational discussion
about how I'm feeling right now.
I don't want someone to offer advice.
I want to talk to someone,
not to come to any conclusions,
not to resolve anything,
but instead to feel a sense of comaraderie.

I want an easy answer.
I want to take the back way out.
I want someone to make a decision for me.
I want to have to live with the consequences of that decision.
And if I don't like the outcome,
I want to be able to console myself
with the knowledge that
I did not put myself in that situation -
someone else did.
I want more time.
I don't want to have to make a decision right now.
It's not fair to expect me, at twenty one years old,
to know what I want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to sit down and have some coffee with someone.
I want to have a rational discussion
about how I'm feeling right now.
I don't want someone to offer advice.
I want to talk to someone,
not to come to any conclusions,
not to resolve anything,
but instead to feel a sense of comaraderie.

I want an easy answer.
I want to take the back way out.
I want someone to make a decision for me.
I want to have to live with the consequences of that decision.
And if I don't like the outcome,
I want to be able to console myself
with the knowledge that
I did not put myself in that situation -
someone else did.
I want more time.
I don't want to have to make a decision right now.
It's not fair to expect me, at twenty one years old,
to know what I want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to sit down and have some coffee with someone.
I want to have a rational discussion
about how I'm feeling right now.
I don't want someone to offer advice.
I want to talk to someone,
not to come to any conclusions,
not to resolve anything,
but instead to feel a sense of comaraderie.

It's amazing.

So many things in this world
that should hurt me.
People say things to me,
they do things to me...
things that should destroy me,
wholly and utterly,
from the inside out.
But somehow they don't.

I have to wonder
if I'm growing stronger
or just more apathetic.

It's amazing.

So many things in this world
that should hurt me.
People say things to me,
they do things to me...
things that should destroy me,
wholly and utterly,
from the inside out.
But somehow they don't.

I have to wonder
if I'm growing stronger
or just more apathetic.

It's amazing.

So many things in this world
that should hurt me.
People say things to me,
they do things to me...
things that should destroy me,
wholly and utterly,
from the inside out.
But somehow they don't.

I have to wonder
if I'm growing stronger
or just more apathetic.

i have reasons right now...
reasons to be fighting this...
to be better than this.
my bad days are random...
and their triggers are too.
i'm need to go for a walk...
its late and its dark.
but i need to clear my head.
sitting here just isnt cutting it right now.
FUCK.
I had a 'bad' day.
agian i feel worthless.
everything was fine.
i was doing ok,
then out of nowhere
i was overwhelmed
by old feelings of
pain and worthlessness.
FUCK, whats wrong with me

i have reasons right now...
reasons to be fighting this...
to be better than this.
my bad days are random...
and their triggers are too.
i'm need to go for a walk...
its late and its dark.
but i need to clear my head.
sitting here just isnt cutting it right now.
FUCK.
I had a 'bad' day.
agian i feel worthless.
everything was fine.
i was doing ok,
then out of nowhere
i was overwhelmed
by old feelings of
pain and worthlessness.
FUCK, whats wrong with me

i have reasons right now...
reasons to be fighting this...
to be better than this.
my bad days are random...
and their triggers are too.
i'm need to go for a walk...
its late and its dark.
but i need to clear my head.
sitting here just isnt cutting it right now.
FUCK.
I had a 'bad' day.
agian i feel worthless.
everything was fine.
i was doing ok,
then out of nowhere
i was overwhelmed
by old feelings of
pain and worthlessness.
FUCK, whats wrong with me

in the end....
we are two souls
that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

in the end....
we are two souls
that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

in the end....
we are two souls
that will never meet
for the paths we chose
are way too far from each other

so its been awhile since i last posted, that is cause i moved, and have not had a chance to get online, and also cause i have not really had anything to talk about on here, so anyways, just wanted to let you know that i am still alive, and all is well, and also to say that my good friend Chris at work has put some of his pictures online, and I think you all should check them out. so go to his site NOW :)

so its been awhile since i last posted, that is cause i moved, and have not had a chance to get online, and also cause i have not really had anything to talk about on here, so anyways, just wanted to let you know that i am still alive, and all is well, and also to say that my good friend Chris at work has put some of his pictures online, and I think you all should check them out. so go to his site NOW :)

so its been awhile since i last posted, that is cause i moved, and have not had a chance to get online, and also cause i have not really had anything to talk about on here, so anyways, just wanted to let you know that i am still alive, and all is well, and also to say that my good friend Chris at work has put some of his pictures online, and I think you all should check them out. so go to his site NOW :)

Back when I was young,
I believed that
if I waited long enough,
my dreams would come true.
Making a wish to the light
flowing in the sky,
I smiled while shaping my present.

Then I became aware,
that even if I wait,
my dreams will not come true.
Kind people only suffer from sadness,
being buried in the darkness called memories.

The overflowing stench of sin
Why is it that I can't protect love
without hurting everyone else's feelings?
Pieces of overflowing lies
Someone's tears are sliping into
the happiness I held in my hands.

Although I was born to this world
with nothing but my heart,
which is without amusement
from the moment I held it,
I'm afraid of losing it.
Even tranquility some day
turns to the enemy

This smell of sin
Why can't I live my life
without hurting anyone?
Pieces of warped lies
While dreaming of an incredible tomorrow,
I count the sleepless nights.

Back when I was young,
I believed that
if I waited long enough,
my dreams would come true.
Making a wish to the light
flowing in the sky,
I smiled while shaping my present.

Then I became aware,
that even if I wait,
my dreams will not come true.
Kind people only suffer from sadness,
being buried in the darkness called memories.

The overflowing stench of sin
Why is it that I can't protect love
without hurting everyone else's feelings?
Pieces of overflowing lies
Someone's tears are sliping into
the happiness I held in my hands.

Although I was born to this world
with nothing but my heart,
which is without amusement
from the moment I held it,
I'm afraid of losing it.
Even tranquility some day
turns to the enemy

This smell of sin
Why can't I live my life
without hurting anyone?
Pieces of warped lies
While dreaming of an incredible tomorrow,
I count the sleepless nights.

Back when I was young,
I believed that
if I waited long enough,
my dreams would come true.
Making a wish to the light
flowing in the sky,
I smiled while shaping my present.

Then I became aware,
that even if I wait,
my dreams will not come true.
Kind people only suffer from sadness,
being buried in the darkness called memories.

The overflowing stench of sin
Why is it that I can't protect love
without hurting everyone else's feelings?
Pieces of overflowing lies
Someone's tears are sliping into
the happiness I held in my hands.

Although I was born to this world
with nothing but my heart,
which is without amusement
from the moment I held it,
I'm afraid of losing it.
Even tranquility some day
turns to the enemy

This smell of sin
Why can't I live my life
without hurting anyone?
Pieces of warped lies
While dreaming of an incredible tomorrow,
I count the sleepless nights.